I love this book. I was directed to a restricted diet by my doctor. The saddest day was the day I surrendered bread to health. I missed baked goods and much of what I could find in terms of gluten-free treats was limited. I was perusing cookbooks, looking for a gift for someone else, when I stumbled upon the Practical Gourmet Company’s ComingGluten-Free Baking cookbook by Ted Wolff.
From the first recipe to the last, Mr. Wolff presents a delightful array of treats and fundamentals (if you, like me, consider toast to be a part of the perfect breakfast). My favourite, so far, has to be the English Muffins. I have yet to get a perfect batch but even my flawed efforts have been more than edible, they’ve been delicious.
There is an ongoing discussion about the relative benefits of adopting a gluten-free diet, particularly if you do not have any medical need for doing so. I came to gluten-free on the advice of my doctor. Even then, I procrastinated, at least at first.
For me, gluten-free is part of the FODMAP diet. FODMAP organizes foods by how they affect IBS and other digestive diseases. My food became restricted just over a year ago.
We started with buying commercial gluten-free baked goods. We found the results spotty, at best; we also found that gluten-free didn’t always work out in terms of taste and texture. Things seemed bleak.
I came upon mixes for some gluten-free baked goods. Again the quality was erratic. We found a couple of good mixes and stuck with those. I felt restricted, but I felt more comfortable. The food I was eating was a better quality. My guts settled down. I stopped losing weight. I’ve actually put nearly 5 kilos back on.
When I found the cookbook, Gluten-Free Baking, at my local bookstore, I stood there for nearly half an hour and I read it, rapt. I haven’t done a lot of baking over my life and I enjoy baking. The recipes were slightly daunting as the ingredient lists seemed longer and more complex than anything I’d done to date. I bought the book and it’s been the best purchase I’ve made in a long while.
Gluten-Free Baking – the Cookbook
The Gluten-Free Baking cookbook is part of the Practical Gourmet’s Company’s Coming series. The book has also benefited from the Canada Book Fund provided by the Government of Canada. The author, Ted Wolff, is an award-winning entrepreneur who loves to take gluten-free products to the public. This man loves gluten-free and he’s made it possible for me to love gluten-free, as well.
The book not only contains excellent recipes but it presents them in a brilliant format. Each recipe occupies a two-page spread. The ingredients and starting instructions generally occupy a single page, but there are recipes that require the second page. There are notes and asides on some pages, providing hints that can be applied to almost any recipe.
The covers are resilient and include a deep flap (on the front cover) and a narrower flap (on the back cover). These work well for marking pages in the cookbook, even when it is closed.
The wire-o binding allows the book to be opened as a two-page spread or folded open to present the single page you need.
The pages are clean and simple in presentation. The paper is perfect for the kitchen with enough coating to protect them from mess but not so glossy you can’t read.
The book is well organized. The front matter includes a discussion of some of the ingredients, particularly those that people may have trouble finding or other reasons for needing a substitution. The description includes substitutions and the changes needed to make the recipe work.
I found this section useful as it gave me a grocery list and allowed me to compare the ingredients to my FODMAP restrictions. Because peas and honey are not part of the core FODMAP diet, I decided to try the recipes without them. Substitutions are offered for the pea fibres, protein, and starch.
The book starts with three basic recipes for flour. Each recipe is divided into two sections. The first section describes the base flour and starch mixture proportions. Rather than dictating a quantity for the result, the recipes are written as parts or proportions.
You can leave the mixture as the core ingredients and tailor it at baking time or you can tailor the mixture and label it for use in recipes for Breads, Muffins, Cookies, or Cakes.
The tailoring ingredients are listed below the basic list of flours and starches. These ingredients will vary depending on the type of baking you’re planning. These ingredients include baking powder, baking soda, whey powder, and xanthan gum.
Basic White is a good, generic white flour that you’ll find used in many of the recipes. The second Basic Recipe is for a Self-rising White blend. This blend is excellent used in quick recipes. The third Basic Recipe is Basic Brown; this is a whole grain flour with a richer texture and flavour profile.
After this, the book moves into the recipes organized by sections. The sections are marked, on the physical book, with coloured tabs. This makes it easy to navigate.
The index is short but complete and easy to use. The table of contents is even briefer and the index is the better way to find a particular recipe.
The only thing missing is a conversion chart. If you are, for example, replacing Pea starch with Potato, Tapioca, and Corn starches, you need to divide the Pea starch amount by 3. I found a conversion chart and taped it to the inside of the front cover. It reminds me, quickly, that 1/4 cup of Pea starch is replaced by 4 teaspoons each of Potato, Tapioca, and Corn starches.
I’ve experimented with several sections of the cookbook. Here are some section-by-section highlights.
From the Breads and Buns Section: French Bread
The French bread recipe produces a loaf that is tasty both as bread and as toast. It lasts much longer as a source for toast; the texture changes as the loaf dries out.
This is the first recipe in which I used the Dough Enhancer that the cookbook includes in the introductory material. I’ve added honey, as well, to improve the lifespan of the texture.
The recipes are easy to follow. I had no trouble producing fluffy French loaves from the first batch.
From the Loaves and Muffins Section: Lemon Cranberry Loaf
This is a wonderful recipe and has given me several delightful loaves. I’ve converted this recipe into an Orange Cranberry loaf and then into an Orange Pomegranate loaf! This loaf is a mouth-friendly fruit loaf. The texture is chewy without being gooey. The flavour is bright, particularly the orange-pomegranate version.
This loaf is relatively easy to make, it doesn’t rise and, as such, requires no proofing. I suggest that you use the dough improver and some honey in this recipe. The dough improver enhances the flavour, popping it out that extra bit and the honey helps preserve the moisture in the loaf.
Sadly no loaf has lasted long enough to be photographed.
From the Cakes and Brownie Section: Lemon Cake
You’ll have to trust me that the brownie and lemon cake recipes are easy and fun, as well as delicious to eat and share. Even my non-GF friends enjoy these treats. I made the lemon cake mix and the brownie mixture, then I blended them, in the pans, to make a 2-layer marble cake. Delicious!
I had to adjust the baking time, as the two recipes used different baking temperatures. Also, I added toffee chips to the brownie mix which changed many things about the cake! The bottom layer, where I put the brownie on the bottom, was crunchy from the melting toffee bits.
The toffee bits also made the cake denser than what the regular recipe produces.
From the Brunch and Biscuits Section: English Muffins
We love English muffins! For my birthday, this year, we started the day with salmon Eggs Benedict built on the English muffins from this recipe. This recipe produces English muffins that are toothy and delicious. They crack open nicely when pierced around the edge with a fork.
I did have some problems getting this recipe right because my tray is a six-bun tray and the recipe is for ten muffins. In my second round, I tried splitting the dough into two bakes. This technique needs some refinement.
For all of you out there who are happily feting the woman who raised you, I have nothing but warm feelings. I love the sight of mothers and daughters laughing together, or huddled close, or even just smiling. Days like Mother’s Day bring the best and the worst out in relationships. The shiny perfection meets the reality.
For all of us, our relationship with our mother is fundamental and affecting. The ripples reach every beach in our being. That relationship forms us.
I love my mother. She had difficulties. She could never overcome them. She needed to be loved, unconditionally, more than your average. She was like fire, enticing and dangerous. Many people never saw the raw Marilyn, or Lyn, as she came to prefer. Like an acolyte on a pyre, I grew up experiencing the agony and the ecstasy of her attention.
Mother was the youngest of seven. She was born when it was clear that the Great Depression was a fact of life. The family was fortunate that relatives had a nearby farm. Summers were for working the land and producing food. By the time my mother was old enough to help she was also old enough to know she had no interest in helping. I bet her family howled with laughter at her antics.
I never met her father, except through stories and there weren’t many on offer; he died when she was 16 and that was a traumatic experience for her. She told me many times that she had snuck out to be with friends the night he died, she wasn’t home when he died and she regretted that. Or she regretted the additional suffering her family went through because not only was the man dead but the youngest child was missing. No, she didn’t want to relieve her family of suffering, but, more likely, she wanted to be there for the event. As if having snuck out didn’t make as good a story now.
Sneaking out was my mother’s favourite activity. She snuck out on my father. She snuck out on us. She had a lot of fun. When she couldn’t sneak away, she’d drag us along. This is probably why I’ve never wanted to get involved in local theatre. Mother was a ham. She loved theatre. She didn’t seem to get many roles. She loved the experience. I don’t recall her complaining about rehearsals, just fretting that she’d be late. My father was busy with other activities, so other men came to get my mother. Other members of the theatre community. She had a lot of fun.
I did get to watch her, once, in a small production. She was a vine. What a ham! We kids, in the audience, were laughing and screaming for the prince to “Watch Out!” My mother kept writhing, wiggling, and wandering closer and closer to the rapt prince.
Socially, there were few who could keep up with the woman my mother became when she stepped out of our home and into the wider world. I saw her on both sides of the door. I was in awe. And terrified. I couldn’t figure out who my mother was. Now I know. I have enough life experience, and adult experience of my mother, to be able to appreciate her more fully.
When I was maybe 10 I liked to playact scenes out. Some required makeup. In one series of self-scripted scenes, I was from Mars and covered with green swirling lines produced using my mother’s eyeliner pencils. One day, I forgot to lock the bathroom door and, when I was mid-monologue, my mother walked into the bathroom. I froze. She looked at me, naked but for swirls of eyeliner, for the longest couple of seconds in the history of time. She smiled. She smiled, nodded, and said, “So, this is where my eyeliner has been going.” She locked the handle, stepped out, and quietly closed the bathroom door behind her. The lock snicked. I had been given permission to have imagination. What greater gift can a powerful parent bequeath?
Our relationship was full of contradictions. Black and white types of contradictions. The truth/the way things are was defined moment by moment. You could not trust a single story my mother told. She was such an inveterate liar that I find it ironic and hilarious that I was the designated family liar. The story about imagination? The flip side was that the creativity was also considered lying, somehow. It got twisted up. My stories became those kinds of stories where everyone grimaces, shakes their head, and roll their eyes.
My writing was encouraged. Small stories and poetry. Mostly poetry. Poetry was compact. Poetry could be memorized and brought out for demonstrations of my mother’s children’s supremacy. My sister and I were artists. I don’t recall my brother getting as well-defined a future as my sister and I received. He got her sloppy, hungry love. She felt reflected in my sister and me. Different kinds of attention and need.
When I was 11, mother introduced me to bartending. I was taught using the “splash and taste” school of bartending. After successfully getting my mother hammered I would be offered my reward: a drink of my own. Now, I was to make it a lightweight. Less booze than mother’s drink. I never got caught. I mixed my drinks just as strong as hers. Stood me in good stead later when I spent nights passed out in dangerous places.
When I was a teenager, my mother was going through her own crisis. At the cusp of my teen years, my mother left dad. She moved out when he was out of town. She was now a single mother with three children. Luckily, we were all old enough to run our own days. I learned more about sex with men. My mother had already trained me as her bartender and I got a lot of practice. My sister introduced me to pot. Saved my life.
The hardest part for my mother was her loss of a social life. All the men who had courted and had sex with her when she was safely married, started avoiding her. Her girlfriends, all safely married, did not want to be haunted by the spectre of divorce. She became a fifth wheel and spent quality time, instead, at home with her children. Her violent behaviour, which had faded as we’d all grown taller than her, reappeared. All that passion misdirected.
Being lonely, being unfettered by a husband who protested expenses, Marilyn signed up for several credit cards and got them. Easily, far too easily. There weren’t any problems, at first. But, for the rest of her life, my mother stubbornly resisted every effort I made to explain how credit cards actually work. No.
She would cry, howl, yell, growl, whatever her mood, in response to the dunning letters she’d received. “It’s MY money!” Yes. She thought it was her money. If she didn’t make a payment, it was okay. The worst were the dunning letters that declared they would seize property. “I didn’t use THAT card to buy my TV! They can’t take my TV!”
In later years, when she’s run into these credit card fiascos, the situation was bandaged with a donation from me to her. Happily, we never ever got around to opening a joint account (to make the transfer of funds easier). I am glad I never got my credit associated with hers.
During the early years of the separation, the entire family heaved with tension and confusion. For a while, my mother simply ran her life as if my father simply lived somewhere else and still provided any and all needs. He bought us a chest freezer and a half a cow; this has always struck me as odd. Why, during all the years previous, had she not thought of this? It wasn’t our practice and the freezer didn’t survive our first move.
In her dotage, a term I use loosely, my mother resumed the chest freezer gig but filled it, instead, with large batches of food she’d prepare. The woman barely ate. In her last couple of years, we tried several ways to ensure she had food. We knew that most of the money we sent her went towards alcohol and cigarettes. She bought her cigarettes on the black market to save the taxes. My mother! She never stopped surprising me.
My sister was the first to escape my mother’s den. She headed first to my father but found that, in spite of the motorcycle, she just couldn’t live with him. She moved in with her boyfriend and his family. This was her Pleasantville.
My brother was sent off, next. He bounced back, not long after.
When I left, I did it the best. I didn’t go to our father. I left town. I used my thumb to find someplace to put down roots. I disappeared for a couple of years. When I returned, I wandered to my mother’s office; it was familiar territory. I arrived as my mother was putting on her coat. Good timing, I thought. But mother’s face when she saw me told me that something larger was going on. I had no idea what good timing I had. My mother had received a call. There was a body and would she come and take a peek? It seems that my previous job, at a federal department, had a dangling paycheque for me. When I didn’t pick it up after several months, they notified the police. Weird, but true, if my mother can be believed.
I was a burden to my mother. Even as I propped her up and cared for her. I had learned, at some point, how to live and love without judgment. Her mercurial ways were no longer a rip tide in my life; I had learned how to get out of her way and protect both her and my boundaries. She appreciated this. Deeply affected, she took to a modified version of her interfering. As long as my boundaries remained in place, she didn’t have access to her superpower and could no longer goad me into revealing secrets. Boundaries were her kryptonite.
My mother had a charming technique that she used to get information from people. When you were a stranger or someone she depended on, she could make statements that prompted you to respond. Now, these statements could be outrageous, but largely they were her opinions of the moment. And, I think, she was genuinely curious about other people but her curiosity had a strange hankering to it. A hunger ached in her.
When I would spend time alone with her, my mother would pester me using a technique I called “sharking.” During the day, before she’d settled into her TV chair, she would circle her apartment and I’d find myself a key point of the circuit. The other key point was the wine bottle in the kitchen. Each time she passed me, she’d pause and make a statement or ask a question. Each one was a probe, and I’d long since learned how to cope with these probes. Some I’d simply ignore, she had a short attention span. Some I’d give a non-committal “huh.” Then I’d get nailed. She was relentless. During one visit, while I was trying to figure out what she’d done to her computer, she circled until she got me. I think it was a combination of trying to untangle her files and stay off her baited hook; I lost it when she arrived behind me (another much-used tactic) and said, “I don’t know why Doris played that drug song at your father’s funeral.” Doris is my father’s widow. The song in question is “Candy Man.” It was my father’s favourite song. We had an argument about the song and, surprisingly, I may have “won.” She relented in my steadiness. My argument was that it didn’t matter what the subject matter was or wasn’t, it was Dad’s favourite song.
For most of my working life, I sent money to my mother each month. I occasionally made extraordinary donations to help when her credit card debts were generating new demands. It frightened her that lawyers were writing letters to her. We set up meal deliveries. We ordered groceries online and had them delivered to her.
Her response? STOP! First reason: “The meals are too salty.” When she was assured we could change that with diet choices. Oh, uh, no.
Second reason: “It ruins my plans to have to wait for them.” Oh, do you go out every day? No. Do you usually go out on the spur of the moment? No, have to arrange the disabled bus. Oh, so knowing that a meal is coming on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday interferes with your life so much that you can’t function. No.
Next reason: “I don’t like having to get ready for them.” Now this I get. For my mother to leave her apartment for any reason (think check the mail and do the laundry), she needs to shower, do her hair, do her makeup, and dress. No sleep pants and t-shirt with sleep rumpled hair.
I didn’t even demure at this since I understood. But, out of the blue, the truth came flying from her mouth with the final reason, “I’d rather have the money.”
I remember when I, as an adult, semi-resided with my mother. She needed help with rent and I needed a landing spot for when I was in town working. My dog feared her. I had to bring the dog, but I made it as painless as possible for him. My mother resented the dog coming along; she wanted me to visit her. Walking the dog became my period of freedom and her period of worse loneliness.
My mother would chat at me the entire time we were in the apartment together. Sometimes, in the middle of the night I’d hear her in the hall and when she could hear me, she’d stop in my doorway and chat with me. She always stood the same way. Hipshot, ankles crossed, one hand with a cigarette near her mouth, one arm across her chest, her head slightly thrown back. She smoked with dedication. Each draw was a commitment. Deep, even intake followed by a variety of expressions of smoke: through the nose as a trickle, a gust through the nose, out the side of her mouth, with her head turned aside and a stream of smoked from pursed lips, and, finally, fogging out of her mouth as she talked.
I can’t think of my mother without also thinking of cigarettes and alcohol. Moments after she finished her morning coffee, she would have a glass in her hand. As she got older, she started her day with watered wine. She claimed she drank less. One evening I watched her switch to beer as she dressed to go out. She kept up with the beers until her ride arrived, late. I waved her off, have fun! The next morning she told me that she just couldn’t hold her liquor like she used to. I must have looked either confused, skeptical, or otherwise disbelieving. “Yes, I’m serious! I only had two drinks last night and I was on my ass!” Right, I thought, you don’t count the bottle of wine and several beers that preceded the drinks at the bar. “Wow,” I replied. What else was I going to say?
Oh, I could have told her she was daft, but it’s unlikely you have seen the rage monster that lived inside her. It consumed her at times. It rampaged like wildfire, tearing through her mind, leaving nothing but ash behind. Sometimes the burning contained entire histories of truth and fabrication; in the moment of the pyre, there is no difference between fact and fiction. What mother says in that voice, with that rage, that is the truth right now, and you better believe it, buster, or you’re out on your ass. Never mind that it’s my income making things easier. Decades of training kick in. I believe.
I love my mother, still. I have few good memories of her. Some funny, like when she insisted I loved her more than I love my wife. The proof, according to my mother, is the connection we made when she first looked into my deep, brown eyes. My eyes aren’t brown. Never mind that we white babies aren’t often born with deep, brown eyes. She’s thinking of someone else’s baby. Nevertheless, there was no convincing my mother, and my wife, wisely, did not try. What my wife did try was to keep from laughing or storming off. I, on the other hand, kept finding odd reasons for leaving the room, and in one case, the building.
One year, my aunt paid for Marilyn to fly to BC. I was in Washington State. Apparently, there were plans for me in there somewhere but I didn’t hear of the trip until my mother was practically leaving for the airport. My aunt ended up hospitalized during my mother’s visit, leaving my uncle and mother together to yank mercilessly on each other’s nerves. My wife and I decided to take my mother over to Vancouver Island so she could spend a few minutes with her grandson. We drove up to Vancouver. We picked up mother. From the back seat, she would pipe up with wondrous lines: “The way you drive it’s no wonder you have no friends.”
All that theatre training must have been helpful because my mother could pitch her voice and project without yelling. In fact, some of her mutterings were more audible than other people’s normal conversation. It didn’t change anything to turn up the music. I can never thank my wife enough for that weekend. While we were settling into the hotel, which did not have a bar, my mother revealed that she’d not had any alcohol for the three days she’d been along with my uncle. He was, naturally, quite distraught about his wife in hospital and he didn’t like how much my mother drank and smoked. So, he decided to not drive her to the liquor store. This is Canada, folks, you buy your booze from the government in most provinces.
There was one liquor store open, for the next half an hour. We didn’t know our way in Victoria, but we rolled down our windows and queried pedestrians wherever we could find them. We got the liquor store in time. Agog at the offerings, quickly as we could, we made several selections and headed back to the hotel. At the door to her room, my mother snatched the bag away from me and turned away.
We were relieved. The idea of my mother going through DTs down the hall was frightening.
For the last 7 years of her life, I lived far from my mother and spent time with her through phone calls. It was odd to hear my voice on the message machine at her apartment while I sorted through the debris of a life. She died one night, nobody is sure which night and was found when the neighbours complained of a smell. Not the way you want to have a loved one go. The message on the phone had, initially, played out in an apartment occupied by a dead woman.
Every once in a while, my wife will suggest I read something she’s just read because I will, just like her, love it. I resist these recommendations. Somehow it feels like a set-up for failure; I’ll fail to love the book, the author will fail to live up to the advertisement, my wife will fail in her recognition of my preferences. So much riding on such small acts.
I just finished reading Ninefox Gambit by Yoon Ha Lee. I think you should read it.
As a writer, I resist the temptation to compare and contrast myself against authors. Any such comparison would be beyond odious. I have, mostly, shed this wretched habit. I wanted to practice this newfound appreciation of others. I do not need the proverbial bitters before this meal. I long to pull out a chair at Yoon Ha Lee’s table.
This is the type of story that has stepped light-years out along a continuum and brought back a story of the future.
The writing feels a bit dense in the beginning as you struggle to find a raft in the sea of new perspective Yoon Ha drops you into. From the very first, you’re deep in the universe of the story. This is a powerful opera in the making; rich worldbuilding saves you from drowning, only to push you back under, once or twice, and fabulous character development gives you bridges into worlds beyond your imagining. Or not. If you’ve lived this kind of madness, there are a thousand gurus seeking you.
The teacher in the novel is a dark presence. There are no light presences. This is a story of liferafts. The characters lurch from the debris of one disaster after another. If you read quickly, you’ll find yourself grabbing the edges, just as you grabbed the toboggan on those really ragged, long hills; speed and height leave you scrabbling for a handhold.
The pronouncements provided by Ninefox Gambit, written into this amazing adventure by Yoon Ha Lee, are cutting edge in a social dynamic that roiling with uncertainty and rip tides. Some might call it brave. I call it scalding. I think you have to be brave to really read it.
The novel is an equation to be solved. Reflecting back on the story with that in mind, I find that each scene is both an equation and a result inserted into the larger equation. It’s a pragmatic view and one shared by few writers. The idea percolated and with a light switch from music to math, we find ourselves traveling an entirely new universe.
The plotline is tangled enough to satisfy the lustiest of plot lovers. There are scenes that may, momentarily, seem jarringly unrelated to the core story arc, but as you chew on the author’s vision, it becomes clear that the divisions of society both work and don’t work. A working version of the universe is in place, but, as always when the powers have everything settled to their satisfaction, a rebel is born. Some rebels must then be cultivated and set against that external rebel.
Rebellion is not a new idea in this universe. Meet the riskiest rebellion yet. Let’s increase the ante! Introduce two internal rebels and pray that they cancel each other out as internal rebels while applying a quantum leap of rebel logic to the problem, the immediate problem, the external problem. The solution of this larger problem, defeating the most dangerous heresy to date, occupies the space opera slot of this heavily driven plot. Breathless pacing.
The development of the central characters is rich and arrived at through the view of actions and motivations. Lee writes brilliantly. While pulling you down into a whirlpool, Yoon Ha shows you the character acting habitually and thinking beyond those habits. Wishing, as we all have at some point, that things could be different.
Character development appears effortless. Not long into the story, you begin to wonder who people are. Who they really are. The characters emerge, are revealed and transformed, as seen through their actions and their asides. Skillful writing! The protagonist, Cheris, is someone you want to connect with, someone you want to see Cheris win in this complex collapse of civilization. Or the collapse of a complex civilization.
Flashbacks are handled consciously. Come here. Look, a flashback. This character learns. You learn. Each flashback contributes to the development of the story, the universe, and the characters. There is a lot to know in this story. As complex as the mathematic basis may feel, at the beginning, you can understand it, with increasing confidence, as the story develops. There are ongoing expansions of the concepts. With exquisite writing, Yoon Ha brings us along the story arc, no matter how well we meet the mathematics.